kyuuñ hai tum nahin ho yahaañ par phir bhi tumhaare hone ka ehsaas kyuuñ hai kuchh hai nahin mere haath men phir bhi kuchh hone ki ye aas kyuuñ hai badi hairaani hai mujhe ki vo door hokar bhi itnaa paas kyuuñ hai sabne kaha ki vo to paraaya hai vo paraaya hokar bhi itnaa khaas kyuuñ hai j itnaa vo door hai mujhse vo utna hi mujh...ko raas kyuuñ hai baitha hooñ bilkul ekaant men main phir bhi kaanon men uski aawaaz kyuuñ hai khul ke nahin kahti vo kuchh bhi uski aankhoñ men itne raaz kyuuñ hain basi hai dil men vo mere ye meraa dil uskaa aavaas kyuuñ hai us..ko nahin bhula saka main ye uske naam ki har shvaas kyuuñ hai poori kaaynaat uski yaad dilaati hai ye tan-man men uskaa vaas kyuuñ hai vo meri hui nahin hai abhii us..ko khone ke dar se man itnaa badhavaas kyuuñ hai dooriyaan likhi hain jaise darmiyaan meraa naseeb mujhse itnaa naaraaz kyuuñ hai aise shabd kahaan se laaun ki vo samjhe jo gar na samjha paa.e to phir aise alfaaz kyuuñ hain rah to raha hooñ apne nivaas men uske bin lagta ye vanvaas kyuuñ hai gar mil bhi jaa.e sampatti saari duniya ki magar vo saath nahin to phir ye bhogvilaas kyuuñ hai sote hi uske khwaabon men aur jaagte hi uske khyaalon men kaise bhi uskaa ho jaane ki itni pyaas kyuuñ hai jaltee hain ye nazren ab meri in nainon ko har waqt teri talash kyuuñ hai haalaat kah rahe hain ki ye mumkin nahin phir bhi tum pukaarogi ek din mujhe itnaa vishwas kyuuñ hai ab bhi nahin samjhi kyuuñ hai tumhaari bahut yaad aati hai tum bin raha nahin jaata bas baat kuchh yoon hai tumse bepanaah mohabbat thii hai aur rahegi ye satya jyon ka tyon hai kyuuñ hai

haal-e-dil meri dilruba tum khoobsurat ho soorat se nahin seerat se mujhe tumhaari seerat se muhabbat hai isi li.e seerat ka jaanta hooñ sharm dahshat pareshaani jinhen sukhnavaron kaviyaan ne ishq kii lazzat bataaya hai filhaal ye mere darmiyaañ aa rahe hain bahaal meri chahten tumhaare nafs men dhadkati hain zinda rahtii hain maine tumhein dekha hai dekhte hue mujhe chahte hue mujhe sochte hue aur mere li.e pareshaan hote hue vaise chaahat ho to kehna laazmi hota hai zaroori hota hai lekin ishq kii qaaynaat men lafz KHaamosh rahte hain aur nigaahein baat kar letii hain mujhe pata hai ek din tum meri nigahon se baat kar logi pooch logi aur tumhein javaab milega haan main bhi chahta hooñ khoob chahta hooñ vaise main bhi apne nagmon apni ghazlon men muhabbat khoob likhta hooñ haalaanki sadaqat ye hai ki main bhi kehne men khauf khaata hooñ vaise bura na maanna ki maine tumse kabhi izhaar nahin kiya soch lena ki theory aur practical men farq hota hai khairab jo meraa maujooda haal hai vo ye hai ki aa.e din dil aur dimaagh mas'ala khada kar dete hain dil kahtaa hai tum khoobsurat ho dimaagh kahtaa hai manzil pe ikhtiyaar karo bahaal tum khoobsurat ho tum ziyaada khoobsurat ho tum sabse ziyaada khoobsurat ho tum hi khoobsurat ho

tumhein ik baat kahni thii ijaazat ho to kah doon main ye bheega bheega sa mausam ye titli phool aur shabnam chamakte chaand ki baatein ye boonden aur barsaatein ye kaali raat ka aanchal hawa men naachte baadal dhadakte mausamon ka dil mehkati khushbuon ka dil ye sab jitne nazaare hain kaho kis ke ishaare hain s abhii baatein sooni tum ne phir aañkhen fer leen tum ne main tab ja kar kahii samjha ki tum ne kuchh nahin samjha main qissa mukhtasar kar ke zaraa neechi nazar kar ke ye kahtaa hooñ abhii tum se mohabbat ho gaii tum se

jazbaat jo ye aankhoñ se bah raha hai kitne ham laachaar hai tum samjho to intezar hai varna koi intezar nahin tumhaari yaad men aise dooba jaise koi beemaar hai tum samjho to bekaraar hai varna koi bekaraar nahin jo meri dhadkan chal rahi hai in men bas tumhaara naam hai tum samjho to ye pukaar hai varna koi pukaar nahin in haatho se tumhaari zulfen sanvaarni hain har shaam tumhaare saath guzaarni hai tum samjho to ye dulaar hai varna koi dulaar nahin tumhaare bas dil men jagah nahin tumhaari rooh se rishta chahiye tum samjho to ye aar-paar hai varna kuchh aar-paar nahin tumhein mil to jaayega mujhse achha saamne tumhaare to qatar hai tumhein pata hai na tumhaari chaahat ka bas ek haqdaar hai baaki koi haqdaar nahin tumhaari baanhon men hi sukoon milega mujhe sach kahooñ to darkaar hai tum samjho to ye bahaar hai varna kahii bahaar nahin tumhaari god men aaraam chahiye tumhaari aawaaz men bas apna naam chahiye tum samjho to ye qaraar hai varna koi qaraar nahin tum ho jo mere jeevan ka tum nahin to sab bezaar hai tum samjho to ye aadhaar hai varna koi aadhaar nahin kaash tum bhi hamse iqraar karte chaahat ki barsaat musala-dhaar karte main tumse behad karta aur tum behad ki bhi had paar karte tum samjho to in sab ke aasaar hain varna koi aasaar nahin agar tum koshish karte to pata chaltaa ki tum ho to ghar-baar hai tum se hi meraa sansaar hai varna koi sansaar nahin bin tere zindagi to rahegi kaat lenge tumhaare bina tum samjho to jeene ka vichaar hai varna koi vichaar nahin ye duniya bhale kuchh bhi bole tum meri nahin to kya main tumhaara to hooñ na yahii meraa izhaar hai agar tum samjho to ye pyaar hai varna koi pyaar nahin

dost ke naam khat tumne haal poocha hai haalat-e-mohabbat men haal ka bat aanaa kya dil sisak raha ho to zakham ka chhup aanaa kya tum jo pooch baithe ho kuchh to ab bat aanaa hai baat ek bah aanaa hai tumne haal poocha hai ik diya jalata hooñ theek hai bataata hooñ roz uski yaadon men door tak chale j aanaa jo bhi tha kaha usne apne saath dohr aanaa saans jab ruke to phir apni marti aankhoñ men uski shakl le aanaa aur zindagi p aanaa roz aise hota hai kuchh purane message hain jin men uski baatein hain kuchh tabeel subhe hain kuchh qadeem raatein hain maine uski baaton men zindagi guzaari hai zindagi mitaane ka hausla nahin mujh men ek ek lafz uskaa saans men pirooya hai rooh men samoya hai uske jitne message hai roz khol leta hooñ usse kah nahin paata KHud se bol leta hooñ uske pej par ja kar roz dekhta hooñ main aaj kitne logon ne uski pairavi ki hai aur sochta hooñ main ye naseeb waale hain us..ko dekh sakte hain usse baat karte hain ye ijaazaton waale mujhse kitne behtar hain main to daagh tha koi jo mita diya usne gar mita diya usne theek hi kiya usne tumne haal poocha tha lo bataa diya maine jo bhi kuchh bataaya hai us..ko mat bataa dena padh ke ro paro to phir in tamaam lafzon ko bas gale laga lena vo meri mohabbat hai aur sadaa rahegi vo jab nahin rahoonga to ek din kahegi vo tum ali faqat tum the jisne mujh...ko chaaha tha jisne mere maathe ko choom kar bataaya tha tum dua ka chehra ho tum haya ka pahra ho main to tab nahin hoonga par meri sabhi naz men uski baat sun lenge tum bhi muskuraa dena phir bahut mohabbat se us..ko sab bataa dena uske narm haathon men meraa khat thama dena lo ye khat tumhaara hai aur uski jaanib se vo jo bas tumhaara tha aaj bhi tumhaara hai

mujhe bahut hai ke main bhi shaamil hooñ teri zulfon ki zaireeno men jo amaavas ki kaali raaton ka rizq banne se bach ga.e mujhe kasam hai udaas raaton men dasne waale yateem saanpon ki zahar-aalood zindagi ki tere chhue jism bistar-e-marg par pade hain tere labon ki khifee jumbish se zalzalon ne zameen ka zevar utaar fenka teri darkhaan hateliyon par badalte mausam ke jaaykon se pata chala hai ke is talluq ki sar zameen par kheejaa bahut der tak rahegi main jaanta hooñ ke maine mamnoo shahon se ho ke aise bahut se babon ki sair ki hai jahaan se tu rokti bahut thii ye haath jinko tere badan ki chamak ne barso nidhaal rakha haraam hai ke inhonne shaakhon se phool tode ho ya kisi bhi ped ke lachakdaar bajuon se kisi bhi mausam ka fal utaara ho aur agar aisa ho bhi jaata to phir bhi teri sharisht men inteqaam kab hai abhii mohabbat ki subah roshan hai shaam kab hai ye dil ke sheeshe par padne waali malaal ki dhool saaf kar de main tujh se chhup kar agar kisi se mila to mujhe muaaf kar de

taarikh kya hai subah roshan thii aur garmiyon ke thaka dene waale dinon men saari duniya se azaad ham machliyon ki tarah mailee nehron men gote lagaate apne chehre pe keechad laga kar daraate thein ek doosre ko kinaaro pe baithe huye hamne jo ahd ek doosre se liye thein uske dhundle se naqshe aaj bhi mere dil par kahii naksh hain KHuda roz suraj ko taiyaar karke hamaari taraf bhejta tha aur ham saaya-e-kufr men ek dooje ke chehre ki taabindagi ki dua maangte thein uskaa chehra kabhi meri aankhoñ se ojhal nahin ho sakaa uskaa chehra agar meri aankhoñ se hatta to main kaayenaat men phaile huye un mazaahir ki tafeem nazmon men karta ki jis par bazid ne ye beemaar jinn ko KHud apni tamannoon ki aatmaon ne itnaa daraaya ke inko havas ke kaaf men mohabbat ki kiranoon ne choone ki koshish bhi ki to ye usse pare ho gaye inke bas men nahin ki ye mehsoos karte ik mohabbat bhare haath ka lams jisse inkaar kar karke inke badan khuradare ho gaye ek din jo KHuda aur mohabbat ki ik kist ko agle din par nahin taal sakte KHuda aur mohabbat pe raayzni karte thakte nahin aur is par bhi ye chahte hain ki main inki marji ki naz men kahooñ jin men inki tashaffi ka samaan ho aadmi padhke hairaan ho jis..ko ye ilm kahte hain us ilm ki baat ho falsafa deen taarikh saay samaaj aqeeda zabaan maashi mashaavaat insaan ke rang-o-aadaaton atwaar ijaad takleed aml intishaar nainan ki azmad ke qisse khitri balaaon se aur devataaon se jang sulhaanaama liye tez raftaar ghodon pe sah men sipaahi nazariya-e-samaavaat ke kaat ne kya kaha aur uske juraabon ke feiton ki dibbiyaan kimiyaan ke khazaanon ka munh kholne vaala baabl kaun tha jisne paare ko patthar men dhaala aur harshal ki aañkhen jo bas aasmaanon pe rahtii kya vo iglend ka mosin nahin samandar ki takseer aur atlantic pe aabaadiyaan machliyaan qashtio jaisi kyuuñ hain aur rafael ke haath par miTTi kaise lagii ye sawaal aur ye saari baate mere kis kaam ki pichhle das saal se uski awaaz tak main nahin sun sakaa aur ye poochte hain ki hegel ke nazdeek taarikh kya hai

subhen raushan thii aur garmiyon ki thaka dene waale dinon men saari duniya se azaad ham machliyon ki tarah mailee nahron men gote lagaate apne chehron se keechad lagaakar daraate the ek doosre ko kinaaron par baithe hue hamne jo ahd ek doosre se li.e the uske dhuñdhle se naqshe aaj bhi mere dil par kahii naksh hai KHuda roz suraj ko taiyaar karke hamaari taraf bhejta tha aur ham saaya-e-kufr men ik dooje ke chehre ki taabindagi ki dua maangte theus ka chehra kabhi meri aankhoñ se ojhal nahin ho sakaa uskaa chehra agar meri aankhoñ se hatta to main kaaynaaton men phaile hue un mazaahir ki tafheem nazmon men karta ki jis par bazid hai ye beemaar jin ko KHud apni tamannaon ki aatmaon ne itnaa daraaya ki inko havas ke qafas men mohabbat ki kirnon ne choone ki koshish bhi ki to ye us se pare ho ga.e inke bas men nahin ki ye mehsoos karte ek mohabbat bhare haath ka lams jinse inkaar kar kar ke inke badan khurdure ho ga.e ek din jo KHuda aur mohabbat ki ek qist ko agle din par nahin taal sakte KHuda aur mohabbat par raaye-zani karte thakte nahin aur is par bhi ye chahte hain ki main inki marzi ki naz men kahooñ jin men in ki tashaffi ka samaan ho aadmi padh ke hairaan ho jis ko ye ilm kahte hai us ilm ki baat ho falsafa deen taarikh science samaaj aqeeda zabaan-e-maashi musawaat insaan ke rang-o-adaat-o-atwaar ijaad taqleed amn intishaar lenin ki azmat ke kisse fitri balaaon se aur devataaon se jang sulh-naama li.e tez raftaar ghodon par sah men sipaahi naziya-e-samaawaat men kaan men kya kaha aur uski juraabon ke feeton ki dibiyaa keemiya ke khazaanon ka munh kholne vaala baabul kaun tha jis ne paare ko patthar men dhaala aur harshal ki aankhe jo bas aasmaanon par rahtii kya vo ingland ka mohsin nahin samandar ki taskheer aur atlantic pe aabaadiyaan machliyaan kashtiyon jaisi kyuuñ hai aur rafael ke haath par matti kaise lagii kya ye nietzsche ka matlab bhi nishte ki tarah nahin to nahin hai ye sawaal aur ye saari baatein mere kis kaam ki pichhle das saal se uski awaaz tak main nahin sun sakaa aur ye poochte hai ki hegel ke nazdeek taarikh kya hai

kitna arsa laga na-ummee dii ke parbat se patthar hataate hue ek bifri hui lehar ko raam karte hue na-khudaon men ab peeche kitne bache hain raushni aur andhere ki tafriq men kitne logon ne aañkhen ganwa deen kitnii sadiyaan safar men guzaari magar aaj phir us jagah hain jahaan se ha men apni maon ne ruksat kiya tha apne sab se bade KHvaab ko apni aankhoñ ke aage ujdate hue dekhne se bura kuchh nahin hai teri qurbat men ya tujh se doori pe jitni guzaari teri chudiyon ki qasam zindagi daayron ke siva kuchh nahin hai kuhaniyon se ha men apna munh dhanp kar khaasne ko badon ne kaha tha to ham un pe hanste the aur sochte the ki un ko tissue-papero ki mahak se allergy hai lekin ha men ye pata hi nahin tha ki un pe vo aafat tooti hain jin ka ha men ik sa dii baa'd phir saamna hai vaba ke dinon men kise hosh rehta hai kis haath ko chhodna hai kise thaamna hai ik riyaazi ke ustaad ne apne haathon men parkaar le kar ye duniya nahin dayra kheenchana tha KHair jo bhi hua tum bhi purkhon ke naqsh-e-qadam par chalo aur apni hifazat karo kuchh maheene tumhein apne tasmee nahin baandhne is se aage to tum pe hai tum apni manzil pe pahuncho ya phir raaston men raho is se pahle ki tum apne mahboob ko ventilator pe dekho gharo men raho

paani kaun pakad saka hai jab vo is duniya ke shor aur KHamoshii se qat'atalluq hokar english men gussa karti hai main to dar jaata hooñ lekin kamre ki deewarein hansne lagti hain vo ik aisi aag hai jise sirf dahakne se matlab hai vo ik aisa phool hai jispar apni khushboo bojh banii hai vo ik aisa khwaab hai jis..ko dekhne vaala KHud mushkil men pad saka hai us..ko choone ki khwaish to theek hai lekin paani kaun pakad saka hai vo rangon se waakif hai balki har ik rang ke shajre tak se waakif hai us..ko ilm hai kin khaabo se aañkhen neeli padh sakti hain hamne jinko nafrat se mansoob kiya vo un peele phoolon ki izzat karti hai kabhi-kabhi vo apne haath men pencil lekar aisi sataren kheenchti hai sab kuchh seedha ho jaata hai vo chahe to har ik cheez ko uske asl men la sakti hai sirf usike haathon se saari duniya tarteeb men aa sakti hai har patthar us paanv se takraane ki khwaish men jinda hai lekin ye to isee adhoorepan ka jahaan hai har pinjare men aise qai dii kab hote hain har kapde ki kismat men vo jism kahaan hai meri be-maqsad baaton se tang bhi aa jaati hai to mehsoos nahin hone deti lekin apne hone se ukta jaati hai us..ko waqt ki paaban dii se kya matlab hai vo to band gha dii bhi haath men baandh ke college aa jaati hai